if...

I were a good girl I would sketch out every painting idea I have floating in my head to have ready for when I get back to the studio in september.

hmm.....I think I'll make myself a mint julep.

uhgh, lame.

I wouldn't call it a failure yet but between it's present condition, the heat and the impending rainstorm - I'm at least not doing anything more to it today and not sure if i'll be square with myself and soldier on or decide because I find the size frustrating enough that i'll just throw it in the bin. i'm on the fence even now.

I'll still do artwork though! thinking i'll draw and watercolour on the hordes of paper i seem to have piled up.

il fait chaud.

so sticky and hot outside, idk if i have it in me to go out there and paint.

lazy.

i've been sooooooo lazy lately it feels so out of character. My parents really must think I'm half slug, not getting out of bed till 10-10.30? ah! thats like 4-5 hrs later than I was getting up last week! incredible. maybe it's my body catching up on lost hrs? or maybe it's i'm sleeping on my futon and it's soooooooooooo comfy. I have millions of things piled on it, i get hot (it's summer) and i don't have a fluffy doona but i still feel like i'm in a little nest and i just can't be roused.

anywho I got in the game today and am challenging myself to one up some fellow in the International Artist magazine by doing a better replica of a j.w.waterhouse. I've always loved his work and feel that since I'm studio-less at the moment doing my own, usually massive work is a bad idea and instead developing ideas and working on my skills is better. This replica has already challenged me to draw on a 'reasonable' scale vs. something as large as I am. what a pain.

anyways I'm about to start painting, outside (hot & sticky, ew.) so we'll see how I go. I'm sure the result will be less than stellar and I'll end up curled up in a ball on my futon doubting my self worth but.....such is life.

done.

finally caught up on my sleep and ate a balanced meal. oh how i love you mum..... currently I'm at my parents place so i'll be catching up on little projects for them and getting my commissions nailed down and on the assembly. I'm also going to make good on a promise I made myself - to create more and to make things for myself more. I had a professor say to me that there was nothing like art education to kill your enthusiasm and it's true. I never experiment or make them just for the act of creation anymore - it's always for the assignment, the client, the portfolio - never just 'cus. I think that's why i get so into making paper cranes and little odd things like that. The only pressure to create them is my joy. I'm excited to see what i do and how i feel differently as i pursue this.

But as far as assignments and such go, the fibers one is not in it's final stage of completion but on the right track.

and the painting for ghist is disappointing but the larger oil one i started is waiting for me to come play with it so i'm ok with that.

uhhhgh staying on task....

I'm not having a problem with being productive but I'm having a problem with etting my arthistory painting completed. I should have finished it tonight but it bores me....so i ended up making golden curry, and then later star shaped corn muffins and doing house chores. it's coming along but.......I did however finish my weaving sampler today. I'll wake up tomorrow real early and just hope that the time crunch will engage me for a period long enough to get that done because... I have a fibers final to bang out. man I'm gonna be one exhausted sheila come the end of the week.

Well guess that's that then. tomorrow, wake up - bust out Caracella, head to class, use lunch break to pick up any needed supplies and then it's silk steaming and

extreme awesome fibers project creating from then on out. definitely don't want my critique and final exam for art hist. on same day. Na, that's a serious no go.

If you couldn't tell I'm a bit under-slept and over- caffeinated.

blue monday

After a terrible thursday night that threw me off my axis I finally on this monday morning feel like i'm ready to get back in the saddle and take on the world if a bit reluctantly. I'd love to just lye in bed and be a slug but I have SO much to do and If I just power through this week then I can go to my parents and get outta dodge for a few weeks before fall semester starts.

First order of business is re-starting the arthistory painting which whiel not looking terrible truly doesn't follow my proposal so ..... restarting.

So it's that, get a go on the fibers final, do some weaving and defunk the apartment. I could also use some grocceries but part of me wants to make do and empty out the fridge so I can deep clean it easier.