Thursday, December 30, 2010


I'm so excited to have this year over. I'm catching a ride to my apartment and I'm gonna deep clean the hell out of it, make mochi cakes and set up the altar. super excited.

*not my creation above, waaaaay not talented enough to do that.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

The New Year

Bei Badgirl's 'My Melody' from her  Red Apple Dessert Pie (Sugar Frosted), 2010.

As both New Years and the Chinese New Year approaches (27th Jan this year) I have been contemplating resolutions and where I'd like this year to go. Of course I wish to be much healthier and have a bit more general luck on my side, which according to my horoscope the Year of the Rabbit will be much better for me in health and wealth and general luck, however there was a note about avoiding water sports.

My horoscope also mentioned getting rid of my poker face and being more frank.

I also may need to reconsider my decorating, my feng shui may be off but I mean I kind of knew that with a print of a gun hanging over my desk, symbols of violence - not so auspicious.

I find it interesting that its supposed to be an auspicious year for health and wealth and be a much tamer year than that of the previous (Year of the Tiger - not exactly a tame year) when it was this year that I wanted to concentrate on career development and my future plans as well as continue my recovery from the accident and overall try to improve my habits for a steadier pace of lifestyle. I take it as an auspicious sign that my wishes for the new year will be supported by the leanings of my horoscope, going with the flow as it would be rather then fighting upstream.

So I guess if all goes well I'll have all the groundwork laid this coming year for a great 2012, my year, which will with all hopes include a move South.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Alice Neel

I watched the Alice Neel documentary this evening off netflix with my parents. I found it very interesting on many levels.
Hartley by Alice Neel

I do like Alice's work, it's not exactly what I would like to be making but some of them are very strong examples of what direction I would like my work to head. The above work especially, Hartley, a portrait of one of her sons has a lot of qualities I enjoy.

I also found it to be an interesting documentary as far as how it looked at an artists lifestyle, the sad story of poverty with the silver lining that she was in fact recognised at the end of her life, but not before her lifestyle had a severe at times effect on her sons. True she was born in 1900 so the path of her life will be different from mine, but had i been born in 1900 its hard not to see the same things happening and wondering if i would make the same choices.

I also wonder if thats why my parents watched it with me, some sort of clue into where this painting thing might lead, a view of what they would consider misguided choices would lead me.

I do know that I miss painting, I guess it's been 2 weeks but it feels like months. I wish I had siblings that I could draw. I don't have the courage to draw my parents, well I don't real feel that I can even ask.

Thursday, December 23, 2010


i miss dance, i think i'll start again.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

because purple haze is twice as good on vinyl

Merry christmas me. Plugged up the lp player. Heaaaaven. Ill only leave this room under duress.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Thursday, December 16, 2010

culinary genius

that's right, thats home-fried atsuage. with peanut sautee sauce. yes I am a culinary genius and I went on later to bake ginger bread brownies with molasses in them and make a rice omelet for someone. shebang.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

ahhhhhhhhhhh wah

I don't want to go back to the studio and paint more tonight. bugger.
The rights all wrong. Gonna take a step back from it and work on something else instead

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

This is why....

 No eye-lights in my self portrait. Sure enough someone will come along in due time to make me feel dead inside. I am dead inside.

I could have been a rotting corpse. I refuse to let people turn me into one.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

my prof. said it looked like a David, reminded him of The Death of Marat.  totes blushed.

David's Death of Marat

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


I could be a mixture of one or all of the following:

strung out emotionally

freaked about going to the neurologist

experiencing some sort of flu - cold like illness.

AWESOME. finals what would they be without a lil extra inconvenience sprinkled on top?

Thursday, December 2, 2010

road trip....

to NH for some sweet takashi murakami and nara for my holiday. definite plan in development.....

and why am i still up?

hideous flyer though...............

new piece

beginning of a new piece, going to be an exploration of tenebrism. Have a crit. tomorrow 1 finished piece and one in prog. my one of the host in osaka is going to be my "finished one" and this is the in prog. It's an interesting challenge painting backward, can't decide if i'll fold and scan and reverse the image or ir i'll just go with it - looks like an older version at the moment..... or what.

Came home and decided miso soup for tea at 2am. something about me an nutritionally void food (miso, jello, tea....)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010