Thursday, March 31, 2011

up before the morning sun.

wish I had time for a run. Had a possible realisation this morning whilst making my coffee, am fairly weirded out by the shrunken size of the world, i mean - WHAT ARE THE CHANCES?!

hope to get my letter today

hope to do fairly well on sociology exam today

hope to stay awake most of the day.

"nap" time


Wednesday, March 30, 2011

...

I haven't been right lately and i feel on edge and I just keep getting freaked out by the big questions and the world and stuff about myself.

Like I stumble on something like this and it's just shattering because it's gone. september, march - its just like these moments are rips in the illusion and it's scary and it's heart crushing and it bridges the gaps of the good times and compounds them into a well made argument that traps you in it's logic and you feel cornered, and caged, and helpless and I'm transported back to those moments when I was scared and confused and doped up but could feel the pain but was to afraid to think about what it meant.

摩訶般波羅蜜多心経

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

today

Honey&Clover clip - does not belong to me

woke up late. had a cute lunch tho. didn't workout. didn't ace law test by far. was semi-savvy on javascript for other class. forgot sketchbook and had to go retrieve from another class. socio-review class was a waste. got a 15min nap. got a cup cake. realised that everything is wrong with current painting. got bus schedule confused. no letter. having a glass of scotch. got some kudos on bluecanvas.

think today goes in the negative column, but if this is the worst of the week - I can make peace with that.

Not up before the sun

but still determined to get shit done. hoorah.

Monday, March 28, 2011

is it procrastinating....

if it's career development?

Honey&Clover clip - does not belong to me


hehe, oops. well, it wasn't law study or my SMAD hw so.......... next 2.5hrs all work no "play".

early bird...

....gets the worm?

well, how about extra hours added to his or her day. I love waking up early - I'm so productive. 


I hadn't realised chiba had been affected too.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Getting myself out there

My art that is.....Of course.

check me out on BlueCanvas - the 'new' and seemingly more professional 'deviantart'

http://www.bluecanvas.com/esbenshade

art competition.

found one! that dovetails with some of my recent themes/direction and is local-esque (reston town center! woot!)

and I find out about it w/ 4 days to pull the work/materials together for submisison.

typical.

yeh, get that stain indelibly inked on ya, cuz you didn't look dirty enough already.


+ this


+ this

Thursday, March 24, 2011

uhhhgh.....have felt better.

Honey&Clover clip - does not belong to me

I could see my health rapidly deteriorating. Its all about staying positive though, right? Think thats what Bear Grylls  is always going on about. survival through pep-talks.

WHHHaohoooh.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Monday, March 21, 2011

recent painting

Think this is it finished - course it always looks better in person too.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

to SAVANNAH!

Honey and Clover clip - does not belong to me

kind of a weird day - possibly because there was a blackout at the studio right at the end? Idk. Have gained massive weight from stress eating, face is a pizza pie and my sleep pattern is to hell but whatever. I'm gonna have my break now and go down south to see a mate at SCAD and celebrate St.Patricks day with her and a few other friends. Perhaps I'll post photos?

Would've posted some art photos but didn't et too since it was pitch black in the studio. 

whomp whomp.

Monday, March 14, 2011

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honey&Clover clip - doesnot belong to me

Saturday, March 12, 2011

hmmm...

don't know what my latest media consumption is going to do to my art but i think it will be good.



I madly want a show at the kaikai kiki gallery.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Go to the library....

to write law paper. end up with a horde of art books. .....yup.

not finished photo but


close-est to photo i could find. however - it can be pushed so much further, and i think i will push it that bit further.

leftovers?

...or delish hearty breakfast? oishii!

I'm def. going to go back to bigger breakfasts. This or another soup with fried fish some rice another veg or even a fruit and some tea? ahhhhh - yum.
btw the udon are in a thrown together (aka 'winging it' recipe never tried before) of kombu seaweed (removed but could have been left in longer), miso, bonito flakes, 1/2ish green pepper, carrots, bamboo shoot tofu, and fish balls. I didn't skim the bonito out much either. I also threw in a bit of pepper and red pepper flakes. It would have been better just with the addition of scallion but the only onion I had was sweet..... whomp. 
Def a meal made of 'what do I have in the fridge' because I refuse to go to the shops till end of spring break. ok, I might buy a small bunch of scallions tonight for a kabayaki donburi but seriously, scallions - EASY to use up, especially with my tastes.

love my family

mum: " Just as a heads up your fathers thinking of going to Africa again. That means you and I would be moving you out of your apartment. And you can't go to Australia till he gets back"

me: "yeh, alright mum"

Monday, March 7, 2011


udon in homemade broth, yay!