the next step...

new beginnings

Lately I feel like a lot of my efforts have been put into pursuing goals and a new lifestyle, and really things are going quite well.

I'm feeling much healthier and productive lately, even if I'm burning the candle at both ends a bit.

All of my classes this semester are really interesting and related to my majors. After all the summer work I decided it was fair to have a semester of all 'career' classes. Versus saying taking that science with a lab I've yet to take.

I've gotten an internship at my university's gallery which I'm quite excited about. Both what I'm going to learn from it and what opportunities it's going to give me.

I've gotten a commission to paint a portrait of my professor from last semester.

And I'm getting a lot of great encouragement from my professors, past professors, family and friends right now; which I really appreciate. For me this last stretch of university (undergrad whom knows yet if I'll pursue a masters) is when I'm going to 'grow up' and really get ahold of my life and take charge. From little things like learning some new recipes back to front all the way to understanding and paying my taxes this year every step I make this year is toward becoming the adult I want to be. I guess it's fairly existential, I'm taking the conscious steps this year to become the person I want to be for the rest of my life. Or at least for the beginning of it.

Oh and I've also begun a new painting, an urban landscape, in my painting class. I'm approaching the assignment with a 'facade' composition which isn't something I've attempted before. not quite sure where I'm going with it at the moment but I was very excited at the ease in which I laid out the basics on the canvas. I was full of confidence and I'm going to hold onto that confidence no matter the setbacks I may (and probably will) face toward it's completion.

ch.

That happened, not. Well it didnt happen because I was at the studio till 'round midnight so in truth the semester has begun again in earnest. I'm in strife a bit because I feel liek I have so much on my plate it seems and it's only midway through the 2nd week. Is it because of all the other events in my personal life I'm trying to balance with the academic in september? Is it because I've set so many personal goals for this semester? Is it because the 3 big things I'm involved in are massively time consuming, slightly opposed to each other and on top of that I'm working out and cooking 3 meals a day? and cleaning? how does everybody else make it look so easy? Could I do part time work on top of this? I reckon I'm soft.

well, squaring shoulders and hardening the..........up.

naughty

yes i've been very naughty and havent updated in ages, but i promise to this evening. until then : true love as art

Destino - Salvador Dali x Walt Disney from leomelofon on Vimeo.

listless.

i was so motivated......and then i don't know what happened.

ahhgh!

making mochi. kami-sama save us!

memento

I made madeleines for my mum this morning. Naively I thought it was b

ecause she had gotten off to a bad start and I wanted to do something to cheer her up, but now i think i had an ulterior motive. cooking and baking - especially successfully is em

powering and a sign of capability - even a sort of organisatio

nal finesse depending on how fast or efficently you pull off the whole shebang. I baked madeleines so that at one point today i wouldnt feel entirely disorganised and disgusted with myself.

I think i've mentioned my 'memory book' project? it's like a weird scrap book version of memento. searching out clues of what i was up to from july 2008- june 2009. I'm looking at my calendar, comparing ticket stubs looking at the run dates of events and even my bank book to get my head and thus the events in order. unfortunately the amount of times i've moved the digital pictures from here to there has corrupted the 'created' date on them. i had at different times tried organising this and unfortunately when i had decided that at that time it was not best i choose to divide up the scraps and mementos based off of genre (music events, sports, etc.) with odd little notes thrown in along with finding 'notes to self' like this:

yes. one side says some sort of description of the aesthetic of the piece i thought of - jarmusch's Deadman in this instance, with a pitiful line sketch on the reverse on a ripped out piece of one of my mate's uni agenda. ( I can see the moment, half baked inspiration strikes at caffeine in the Ag and a beg a scrap from the person next to me and make what has to be some of the most incomprehensible dribble since my crayola years) yes this here folks is why i have no success, because at times i have the organisation and forethought of a hot pink lemur.

I also think i'm going to need a third japanese style moleskin album. zut alors.