I hate my painting sooooo much right now i just want to rip the f*ing thing off the easel and smashit and pour solevent all over it, but thats ok. The reason why im a good painter and will be a great artist is i don't need anyone to come cheer me on and tell me how great it looks. I know what first steps need to be taken to fix it so im gonna do them and go from there. The only person with more false positive attitude is tim gunn. "make it work".

gonna make it work in under 3 days.

oh that's right,

This is why I get up early in the morning, look great and eat great. 

The trick will be working out again so hunger actually gets me out of bed,

 which now I can do because my arms doing better! (^.^)

oh, it was rice with steamed green beans and a portion of pan seared salmon with a sprinkling of furikake, so yummmmmm.

ahhhgh....holiday facade has been shattered

Not my creation

bugger off, I have reading and studying to do. (T_T)

tumblr

i think i have a tumblr. haven't used it. however as much as i enjoy the visual mash-up that most tumblrs seem to be i feel it could get out of hand easily, and i don't like that i can't find the original source for an image.

update 'brighter'

update:

happy birthday.....

to me? i turn 22 today. surreal.

uni student life is sad

because you use a meat thermometer to check if you have a fever. Even more so when it confirms your suspicion but means nothing because it's not like you can just not do your work or go to bed early.

def some sort of pattern....

....in my 'lets look at bento supplies'. This time i'm not hungry but I don't feel like i should go to sleep and yet procrastinating from huge pile of work.... also silently admitting to myself that I probably won't get a bento tomorrow. pout. even though just bento is featuring a new multi-functional topping for veggies, walnut miso paste.

am slightly cheered by my lil fox (theme for gmail) he's like my little ever working buddy and this evening i finally caught hm sleeping and his ancestor ghosts playing Go on his lawn. it's sad that was a highlight to my day and sadder more that i think I should sleep because he is. i'm gonna give it a go, but only if i wake up at 6 so if it doesn't happen immediately back to work so i can sleep in till like...8? idk.

mate complained about staying up till 2am on a saturday doing work (gasp! oh no!) .....decided not responding was best. ..... (-.-)*

fight on right?  "がんばって!"

BUUUZZZZ

wow. coffee. hi, forgot about you.

がんばって！(GANBATTE!)

One week.

- 1 research paper
- one take home 10 essay question aesthetics exam
- one film to shoot
- painting to work on
- bags to pack
- sanity to retain

..... i can do it....right?

recent art

better image of pinku gyaru. too lazy/ wanna build up the suspense of ryoma.

"easter" or the finished urban facade

Finished urban facade aka "easter" in time for my grant application. That im mailing tomorrow/later today. Yay!


..... I love my little camera on my phone and my ability to instantly update my blog, but no joke the colour on these is horrid. from the digital camera:

nvm, i'll add it later. internet is being lame.

ta da!

inertia

the more things I have to do, the more I want to do. I was going to have a busy week already with the regular academic rigor and prepping for shooting my short film next week but now I'm also applying for a grant, trying to get onto this artist in aus so i ca propose him to someone in the SAAH faculty to then propose him to the sawhill gallery by next friday, continuing trying to remaster dreamweaver, have a research paper due next week, trying to have a social life, eat healthy food i've cooked for myself and on top of that - I WANNA BAKE A CAKE.

i'm nuts.

pinku gyaru finished!

taken with mobile phone

So I've finished my (last?!) acrylic painting..... well I haven't really chatted about it yet with my professor so I suppose there could be a change but v. v. unlikely. At the end of this week I'l post a proper picture from a real camera vs. my mobile.

Anyway that's done so back to ...... :

working on ryoma again

...and yes i'm painting pinku gyaru in as a billboard in the picture (^_~)

domesticity? or Gyaru?

well I might be turning into a japanese house wife.... oh well! Since it's going to be a long day, one of many this week, I decided to really enjoy breakfast. We have no toaster, so that means it's got to be asian inspired and I just love Japanese food! This is nothing crazy hard or exciting but delicious. Pan seared salmon, tamagoyaki, rice with nori furikake and some salted/soy sauced cucumber slices and a cherry tomato. I also had a glass of iced "green" tea and a cup of warm oolong. My body pretty much runs off of caffeine. And of course everything that was left over went into today's bento! Which has less than successful 'panda face' made of nori. True it might be a little tiring to have the same thing for lunch but crunched for time/ so excited about salmon for lunch I don't care.

My gyaru and host paintings must be getting to me because I'm also wearing pink shoes and glitter eye-shadow. Oh well, it's just my childhood expressing itself. I mean, I used to wear pink all the time. My room was pink, I actually really like pink. shhhh! it's a secret. (^.^)

rumble rumble

I must be hungry I'm looking at kitchen supplies online......

monday!

my mother's favorite day of the week is monday because it's a new beginning yadda yadda yadda, and I might just have to agree with her this week. Going to get back into the proper pace of things - first step a bento. fairly simple one but the stuff in the flower cup are these real fruit chewys of strawberry and mango I got from Target. yummy, desserty but also healthy and wont go bad on you sort thing so I highly recommend them for bentos.

I haven't REAALLLY worked out this morning but I'll dance around a lot and then plan on a light run this evening. won't lie woke up a bit late. night time sniffle relief really knocks me on my arse.

anywho.......   がんばって！(GANBATTE!)

uhhhgh. fall back an hour and get a new perspective.

This week has been ridiculous. My return to a social life caused a huge imbalance in behaviors but now I feel like I'm back. I was so excited about not having any work directly hanging over my head but now I need to get back in the game and realise I have quite a few long term assignments I need to be ontop of. I finished the pinku gyaru painting and will update with a photo by monday at the latest. Next I suppose it will be final touches on Ryoma will be done and I'll finally do the last details in the Urban facade. It's going to be a v. v. productive week. Much less shenanigans.

eerie.

It feels so weird not having anything that needs to be done RIGHT NOW. So I watched some David Bowie interviews. I think I'll go to the studio to do some work....... I kinda wanna drink but feel like been hittin the sauce a bit - relatively hard since I've had like none before late last week.

???

what is in the water in this town?!